Surprises

You must be ready for surprises. No matter how boring your life may be there’s always a surprise to shake things up a little bit, even if it’s for a day or an evening.

On Sunday my phone rang. It was my brother, and guess what? He was in Rio! Actually he had been here for a few days but was busy doing stuff of his and couldn’t have called earlier. Anyway, we arranged to meet yesterday. Despite all my efforts (apparently in vain) to save money, I couldn’t have said no. My family is a mess, we’re spread through 3 different cities and even the ones in the same city are somehow still distant from each other, not exactly in distance, if you know what I mean… So, whenever you have a chance to enjoy some time, you can’t say no! And that’s what I did. We had a nice dinner last night in a nice bistro, then we went to the cinema where we saw a nice french film with the lovely Audrey Tautou. Money well spent, I must say.

Today I’m back to my boring routine, and you?

In my cave

I’m still too far from being ok. It was a holiday yesterday, and it will be another holiday tomorrow, so no work today because everybody in this country, specially in this bloody city, won’t work between 2 holidays! I’ve been at home since last Friday doing nothing but thinking how shitty my life is, how uninteresting I am, and how come I have nothing to do besides being home in front of my laptop. I’ve never imagined I would miss work! Well, at least when I’m working I’m surrounded by (sometimes nice) people and not thinking about things.

When I’m depressed I like to cook. And that’s what I did today. Spent lots of money on good quality ingredients. Since you’re willing to cook a nice meal, enjoy eating it and therefore putting on some weight, there’s no reason to do it without quality products and the most important thing: passion!

I haven’t been on msn messenger for more or less a week, so I haven’t been talking with anybody. I’m stuck in my pseudo cave saving me from the outside world. There’s one thing I still haven’t figured out how to do: save me from myself! Am I my worst enemy? I guess so…

Time is money

This post probably won’t make any sense at all. It’s jut me thinking a bit “loud”.

If,

time = money,

spent time = spent money. (does it make any sense?)

So,

If,

spent time spending money = ????

Yeah, maths was never my strong subject! :-/ Hey Ju, if you read this I guess you could help me with this equation, couldn’t you?

To go or not to go?

Ozzy Osbourne has confirmed his South American dates and he will play here in Rio next month. When I heard rumours about this show I decided that I would not see it. Ozzy? Come on! The guys is dead and he still doesn’t know!

I remember back in 95 when it was the last time he played here in Rio (if my memory isn’t playing tricks on me). It was a hell of a show! I didn’t go at the time (don’t remember why), but I know a few people who went and for what they told me, I really regretted not going! Really did! And this regret is what is trying to convince me to go this time! But I honestly don’t know! I don’t think Ozzy can perform on stage anymore, can he? In what condition is his voice?

Money is THE big issue! I have just spent loads of money going to see Maiden in São Paulo (plus a mini holiday) a few weeks ago. Helloween has confirmed its gig here in Rio with Gamma Ray as special guests (and this is a MUST GO) next month. So, going to see Helloween probably means not going to see Ozzy. Not necessarily if I withdraw money from my saving accounts. The question is: Is Ozzy still worthy it?

Edit: I just saw this video recorded in Toronto last January. See it! Oh better, don’t see it. It’s a waste of time. Ozzy is totally out shape, he can’t even sing the high notes anymore. It’s sad how he destroyed one of my favourite songs. I could have slept today without watching this video. No way I’m going to waste 200 bucks to see him. That’s very sad indeed. :-/

Really Fucked

I like being a free-lancer. Working the hours I want, how much I want, having the freedom of choosing who I want to work for. There are some periods of the year that I’m really busy and I don’t know how to handle everything, but I somehow manage to do everything quite well. (and my bank account thanks me!)

Something that pisses me of is not being recognized by my family some people. They don’t understand, they think I’m a bum and all I want is to stay home in front of the TV or the computer. Their idea of a good job/profession is being stuck in an office 8 hours a day. It doesn’t even matter if as a freelancer I sometimes make more money than if I had an office job.

You know what is the saddest thing about this? It’s the fact that this time of the year is the only time that makes me think everybody is right and I’m wrong. December is the hardest month of the year (for freelancers)! All the people you work for decides to take a break, and suddenly you’re fucked! That’s my case right now! I’m really fucked! I currently have a six hundred quid loss in my income and a five hundred quid credit card bill to pay. Not really sure what I’m going to do now. Well, I kind of know! I’m not going to spend anything in my credit cards this month to avoid having the same problem next month (considering the fact that January is also a bad month).

But then if I think like this, I’ll find out that February is even worse because of bloody carnival! And living in fucking Rio at this time of the year it’s the worst thing in the world! Well, I’ll bash carnival in another post. That’s all for now!

Consumism

Can you try to explain me why the hell I’ve bought an acoustic guitar and two pairs of Adidas today and spent almost a thousand bucks?

Did I need an acoustic guitar? Not exactly…

Did I need two pairs of Adidas? Well, maybe one. But not 2 for sure!!

So why have I bought them? Good question… I have no bloody idea!