It all started with my mobile again. It rang earlier today at lunch time. The caller id identified it as my cousin’s number, than I spoke to myself: “Wtf?”
She and I used to be pretty close. We often used to frequent each other houses, we used to go to the beach almost every weekend (mainly forced by our parents, who were very keen on going to the beach), and as we got to our teen years we started to go out together at night, to travel and stuff like that. Then as we got old, we kind of parted ways. Each one followed their own path and we’ve become very distant. Things got even worse when my uncle divorced from her mother, and as the years passed, some attitudes of hers were very, to say the least, wrong. To sum up, I can say that we don’t have any bonds anymore, even though her father (my uncle) is still very close to me.
So, going back to line 2 of this post, you can now understand my reaction when I looked at my caller id. Anyway, I answered it and the conversation didn’t last 3 minutes. We talked like we were still intimates. She went straight to point and said: “I’m going to get married, and I was wondering if you’d like to be my best man.” And after a 3 seconds deadly silence on the phone I accepted it without hesitation.
I still don’t know what this invitation really means. Haven’t had the time to think about it more carefully. Don’t know if she really wants me to be her best man, don’t know if she was kind of forced to choose me because of family reasons, don’t know if I was chosen because one, two or maybe three other guys refused the invitation before me. Really! I honestly don’t know. I’m very suspicious of the things that happen around me. I wish I wasn’t like this, but I am. My ‘Yes’ hasn’t made me feel happier or sadder (at least not yet), and I have no idea if made her happier. It has made me worried, though. Worried about how much I’ll have to spend on a nice suit!