Feeling…

I’ve been bad lately. Not only depressed, but feeling tired, feeling sick, feeling old, feeling only God knows what… I’ve bought one of those multi-vitamins & mineral pills to make me feel less tired and willing to do stuff, but to be honest it’s not working. So, I really think it’s something mental, you know what I mean? Not in a mood to do anything, really.

The cave is cozy. It’s warm, there’s lots of food, music, tv, lots of downloaded films and series (btw, have you watched the last episode of Lost aired last thursday? OMFG!). What else could I ask for?

Lost

Have you ever felt the future is the past, but you dont know how…?
A reflected dream of a captured time, is it really now, is it really happening?
…
Dont know why I feel this way, have I dreamt this time, this place?
…
All my hopes and expectations, looking for an explanation
Have I found my destination? I just cant take no more
…
Think Ive heard your voice before, think Ive said these words before
Something makes me feel I just might lose my mind
Am I still inside my dream? is this a new reality
Something makes me feel that I have lost my mind
…
I get up put on the light, dreading the oncoming night
Scared to fall asleep and dream the dream again
Nothing that I contemplate, nothing that I can compare
To letting loose the demons deep inside my head

Dread to think what might be stirring, that my dream is reoccurring
Got to keep away from drifting, saving me from myself
…
Lost in a dream of mirrors, lost in a paradox
Lost and time is spinning, lost a nightmare I retrace
Lost a hell that I revisit, lost another time and place
Lost a parallel existence, lost a nightmare I retrace

No need to say that I’m not on my best moment right now, right? Sometimes I think like disappearing just like the kid from this amazing film (based on a true story). But this isn’t a solution, is it?

Oh, btw, the extracts above are from one of my favorite songs called ‘Dream of Mirrors’.

Current TV addicitions

Californication: No, I’m not talking about the RHCP’s song, but the new show starring David Duchovny (the eternal Fox Mulder). It’s about a writer who tries to juggle his career, his relationship with his daughter and his ex-girlfriend (who he still deeply loves), as well as his appetite for beautiful women. This show is what everyone is thinking and wondering in their minds. The writers make you feel empathetic towards a depressed, self loathing, crass and obnoxious man who is going through a mid life crisis. Unfortunately this show is not for everyone as its hard to be open minded about hidden prejudices that we all have and he natural animal instinct of mankind. The show has one of the best/strong/dirty dialogues I’ve seen on American TV, and there’s a hot naked chick in almost every episode, which is a great bonus!

30 Rock: The most intelligent sitcom since Seinfeld! As simple as that!

Heroes: Second season started soooooo slow, but now, OMG!!!

Prison Break: I’ve just discovered this show. I’ve downloaded the entire first 2 seasons and all the episodes from the current 3rd season. I watched them all in 3 days. Shall I say more?

Lost: Can’t wait any longer for January 31st. You know, something wicked will happen in the first episode of the new season, oh yeah!

ER: A classic!

24: This one is losing its strength, every season tends to repeat the previous one and I enjoy it a little bit less as the years pass. But from what I’ve read so far about the new season, it can still be good. Haven’t lost my hopes on this one yet.